Time to Confess

Okay folks, the real reason I haven't been blogging half as much is due to the fact I have been sicker than a dog the past month. Why you ask?

Possibly due to the fact a small human is currently residing in my womb and teaching me daily what sacrifice really means.


Yes, Trevor and I are having a baby. In true Mormon fashion. I'm not quite sure how it happened. Well, I am (Have u seen my husband?!)...but it was a surprise never the less. I'm still in shock. Trevor is the happiest little cowboy you've ever seen.

It's still a bit early. I'm 10 weeks, so assuming the baby (and I!) can survive the heat of Ecuador, we will be through the first trimester. I really wondered when to make the news public, but what the heck!? At this point, there's not much else I can do except pray for a healthy, adorable blonde bambino.

I never planned on having a baby this soon after marriage. Trev and I had talked about it a TON, but I had never actually taken the leap of committment. I was praying intensely the past few months regarding which road to take (as many of you know) in regards to obtaining my masters or starting a family. It was extremely difficult for someone like me who wants to do it ALL, but when I found out I was pregnant, it seemed so clear to me what Heavenly Father needed from me at this point. And don't worry, I'll get my masters eventually too!

There is another twist to the this story. A twist many of you do not know. I was diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome when I was 16 years old. (If any of you watch John and Kate Plus Eight, she has the same condition). As a result, I was told by many medical professionals and others that getting pregnant would be much more difficult for me than the average female. It was a haunting fear. Apparently, I proved them all wrong and am indeed Fertile Myrtle. I cry even thinking about it, because I truly thought this would be a long and difficult journey for me, Trev and our future little family.

So here we are. Roche baby is due Jan 24, 2009, the day after my 24th birthday (and he/she will NOT come early). I'm still sick, but it's getting a little easier each day. I even ran a few miles on Friday!! Morning sickness is morning, afternoon, and night sickness for me. I'm actually losing weight due to the fact I barf up every thing that goes in my mouth, but the doctor says I'm healthy and will gain it back in the next few months. Uh, good? :) I never thought I'd be excited to gain weight.

We got an ultrasound last week and everything looks fantastic. It was amazing to see the little creature (which Trev swears is really an alien) and hear a little heart. I'm terrified to think Heavenly Father would entrust a PERSON to someone like me who can hardly take care of herself. haha. But it's wonderful and we are stoked.

Trevor is determined it's a boy.

So cheers to babies. All you moms? I will need all the advice I can get.

The Roche family of little blonde headed ninos begins.