Everyone keeps asking me if I'm tired - if having twins is ridiculously hard. My answer again, is NO! (well. maybe a little tired.) Having a litter of children is very different, but not impossible. I think the biggest challenge for me is accepting the change. I have to let go of running to Target for popcorn and a drink with Treyson (our favorite activity) alone and realize I can't do it with all three (uh. seriously. we don't fit in a cart.). I CAN however, wait till Trevor comes home, force him to go with the promise of snacks, and haul all three around with two carts. It is possible. It's just different.
The worst part? The destruction of my body. I don't consider myself high maintenance (though others might disagree), but I like to feel in control of at least myself - heaven knows I don't have control of anything else. If I feel fat, or in this case, AM fat, I want to change it and I'm willing to work to do so. I just want to fit in my clothes and not look like a 40 yr old mormon mom with clothes that are 3 sizes too small, a muffin top for days and a 3 button polo from Old Navy. YOU KNOW what I'm talking about. I want to puke when people offer the obligatory compliment.."You look great...for having twins". uh...thanks? It doesn't matter what size you are. When you don't feel good in your own skin, it's tough.
When I start to feel down about it, I dress the girls up, or make a new bow...and it seriously makes the world a better place.
We're finding our groove more and more each day. So grateful for the help and support we've received. Still can't believe we're all alive after 5 weeks.
One day, my blogs might even be exciting again. Like, when I leave my house!
7 educated comments:
Here, here! You are so great! I wish I was there to come over and play with the girls so you could get out with Treyson. If any Idahoans are reading this, even a half hour can be a miracle. Just so Andrea can get out and run around the yard with Treyson.
P.S. I've been looking thru pics to find the ones that look like Tof and I can't find it! I thought it was on facebook but maybe it was the blog. I'll send along when I find it.
PPS About the body....I'm laughing because I've been wearing Kris's button up polo shirts. HAHAHAHA. Not wanting to deal with the muffin top myself. I'm wondering how I ever fit into those clothes and was about to go buy more baggy stuff. Hahaha. But then the other day I grabbed whatever I could find in the closet and when I looked in the mirror, I almost died. I looked like SUCH a frompy mom. UGH! I need run or something.
This is EXACTLY how I felt with only one haha.
:) yep..."it's possible...just different"
You are too hard on yourself. 5 weeks!! that's not a very long time! I can't wait for you to read this in a few months. You will have lost it all, and be back to your comfortable skin :)
It seems like forever...but it will happen. Don't loose hope :)
as for the girls and bows. always cheered me up too!
ohh and tired...WHAT...you haven't hit the low yet? Yikes..I am pretty sure I started feeling tired at about 4-6 weeks.
You had me at Old Navy.
I deal with the same feeling about my body post-partum with one. Probably because I gain as much as people pregnant with twins. Nolan is almost a year and I'm starting to wonder if muffin tops will be the next "in" thing?? That would be nice.
My friend has twins and she has one of the skinniest, toned bodies I know. But she does work for it and so I say, "You go girl!" I bet you will get that body back too.
At five weeks I was still learning to walk again. Give yourself time.
Cute kids.
I love that obligatory compliment. I've gotten the you look great for having had 6 kids. So of course in my head I am thinking I must look huge!! BTW I am sure you look fab.
what sara said.
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